Tagliabue: Coming Up To Summing Up 2 comments

26 Feb 2004 @ 01:21, by Richard Carlson At that pond the frog is growing old now--- among fallen leaves. ---Buson How could there be any question of acquiring or possessing, when the one thing needful for a man is to become---to be at last, and to die in the fullness of his being? ---Antoine de Saint-Exupery One day, while Nan-Ch'uan was living in a hut in the mountains, a strange monk visited him. Nan-Ch'uan greeted him saying, "Please make yourself at home," and then left to work in the fields. He worked hard all day and came home hungry and tired. The stranger had cooked a big meal for himself, threw out the leftover food and broke the utensils, and went to sleep. When Nan-Ch'uan stretched himself out to sleep, the monk got up and left. Years later, Nan-Ch'uan told this story to his disciples, commenting, "He was such a good monk, I miss him even now." ---Zen koan Celestial Beings Sing and Dance for the Holy Couple Miniature Painting On Paper, Kangra School Artist Kailash Raj There is a slight difference in the latest sheaf of poems from John Tagliabue, my beloved mentor and friend from college days. Hard to believe we've known each other some 45 years---and have laughed and cavorted the whole way. The difference is an aura of summing up that pervades the poems and commentary. Well, that's a big difference right there: commentary. He not only tells us his references, but journals off into the people and places right there at the poem...or on the back of them really. He sometimes does that at his poetry readings, but not so much in letters. He knows I put some of them up on the Internet...and even though he refuses to get involved in computers, he likes what I'm doing. "Dear Richard Carlson, what a fine name; I was looking for a piece of paper & found in the divine disorder of my Studio some of your 'Tagliabue Updates'---so I thought I'll send that dear student, antic student, actor & so forth more poems; yes, I'd like my poems to be updated beyond my mortality. As surprised I tell everyone I'm 80 & a half! and since November I've been Annoyed Disturbed by the Consequences of Bell's Palsy, the left side of my face was paralyzed, but better now (though the left eye still damaged & my eyesight is even worse). More difficult for me to read---but I continue to write (yesterday wrote 'Passa Tempo' on the other side; the other also written recently. I wrote probably more than 300 last year; usually don't count or organize...but I send some gladly to Responsive You... For a long time now I can't get the urge & action to send poems to magazines or the editors,---only letters & poems to friends. I'm self-critical of this, but feel pleased, free, that I continue to write letters & in my notebooks. Just re-read the 3rd poem on the other side; sometimes Pen leads me to Panic Discharges. Pots & Pans or the Good Pan. I like the motions of the upstart Gods, much ye olde Greek culture..." The poems "on the other side"~~~ notes and poems beyond age 80........................................................ 1. Nice when the casual nurses seem good natured as they do this morning So many people on their way out, old folks, waiting in doctors' offices, millions of them all over the world, often with pictures of Monet up on the wall, dear old dilapidated folks and all kinds of joking, as the destined ones get ready for another blood test or to hand in their stool samples; all of us more or less like fatalistic stunned passengers in the lobby of an Outward Bound Ship. 2. I've seen pictures of those saints carrying their own eyes in a plate or carrying their own breasts in a plate and I suppose there are those that carry other parts of their operated upon bodies to the Creation; the Imagists of India have Brahma, Vishnu, Shiva in the Dance; others also are assisting in the operation; the palpitating Heart too is an Offering. In the universe in Darkness or on Fire we are bound to offer ourselves up in part or complete; we must make offerings of every part of our bodies, they are gems, pastime of the Complex and Changing Motion, Creation, Destruction - here's an Ear, here's a Tongue, here's a Speech preciously needed by our relatives in despair and the dance. The Sun Itself is sending up miles of flames, of particles in rampage. And Job had some complaints a while ago. 3. Passa Tempo Instruments of pastime, of passion, expression, felt necessity, day after day, decade after decade - pen, paper, imagined people - we writers have ours - all others in all occupations and moods have theirs, pianists have their grand pianos, comedians have their harmonicas, brick layers their trowels, tight rope walkers have tight ropes, and so on, plus we all have our fantasies, routines. Amazing. Amazing as the globe turns as our molecules burn, as our sentiments urge us to attend our Instruments. Pen, you've come in handy countless times; and, comrades, you who too must work, honor your instruments, laugh with respect at your pastime. "Now next day...letter continues...Feb. 18 it snowed last night....beautiful as in Maine often to see the whole world covered with snow. Years ago when I was in Maine I was surprised by a tel. call from Coleman Barks saying he liked my poems & later sending me his Rumi translations. Wonder how & where he is now---he was in Georgia I think. Now I have other letters to write---but got the urge to Update you with notes, love, poems. John" February notes and poems; praise and thanks................................... 1. What is this profit motive that leads people to commerce competition anxiety madness sadness ? give me a prophet motive that leads us to lyricism kindness generosity. 2. Meet Rumi at the door laughing You can ask this star or that star concerning people and paintings and other important messages intimate and transforming that you meet, that you fortunately astronomically astrologically or by good chance met; "Why did we meet ?" You'll never know. But take Rumi's Advice: "Meet them at the door laughing, / and invite them in. // Be grateful for whoever comes, / because each has been sent / as a guide from beyond." And welcome Coleman Barks the translator of these words in also. 3. Rumi: "How can anyone say what happens, even if each of us dips a pen a hundred million times into ink ?" I dip more than a thousand times into a small lake. it is like consciously unwilfully making love. One can even be accustomed to satisfaction even before one is born. Is that what we're up to ? 4. February Rumi helps make room for Valentine wishes. We don't mind being roomy. Selections from the 2004 NOTEBOOK ......................................... * To miss a chance / to dance / that's sort of tragedy. * With eyes opened or closed To see the rails of travails relatively smoothly is a desire to be desired; do you know the melodious sounds of the wheels produced by the needs ? let your fellow and sister friends ride your train of thought so they will hear optimistic energy and see scenery to help them love the world and to the mystery next to them. Tangible and yearning with a sense of expectation, destination, you seek a contact as you enjoy the voyage. At any age seek for hints and good feelings from any page you are reading or any beloved you are warmly thinking of. "Glad that I gave a Poetry Reading in Athens... Glad Grace & I went various times to various islands--- beautiful!---& to mts & monasteries & to much Great Greek art---on various good luck occasions. Proud of this." Thanking a Classical Conqueror in N.J. English I can't forget it, I hear it resounding, the thunderous waves, the way Achilles, supremest boldest samurai, clashed with, fought clamorously, a River, Xanthos, WOW ! undaunted bold one recorded by blind and supremest Homer. Would that vigor vitality ongoing determination could lead me with the help of some god or goddess to stride and battle on, battle against droopiness, the heartache and the thousand natural shocks that flesh is heir to; modern man in search of a soul and some sort of victory Hamlet gets into my stream of consciousness; anyway - you see I'm no Beowulf or Achilles, I often enough modern moan to be or not to be. Anyway, glad to have heard again from you, classical clear resounding Accomplished Homer. Deprived by my New Jersey High School of a Classical Education I can't even say Thank You in Greek. This is me, Richard, talking again: and so he goes on, always in company and dance with his beloved bride, Grace from Eternity...she of lovely smile and everpresent quiet, she who drove him everywhere because he couldn't get around to learning the operator's manual, she who inspires his every breath and dream. His poems come on typed pages, reproduced here as well as I can given the limitations of whatever venue in which you are reading. He cuts the pages to roughly the size of the poems, whatever they may be...and then writes stuff in pen on the backs in an increasingly difficult scrawl---but diligence and time and squinting usually pay off. When you open a Tagliabue letter, invariably poems tumble out like falling leaves. This is appropriate, since one of his favorite images is of the Chinese poet who drifted in a little boat each day, writing his poems on leaves and dropping them over the side. John has given his lifetime to dropping wise leaves of trees and grass over his side and into the stream of us students and friends and loved ones to catch and gather. And he often writes poems about us readers...and it is good to finish with one, which he introduces here in his letter: "Thoughts of the somewhat distant past mentioned on the other side---related to classes given in Beirut Pullman, Washington Alfred, NY Univ. of Pisa " " Tokyo Indonesia Univ Jakarta Univ Natal, Brazil Shanghai Bates College Madrid where else? not in chronological order" Vast, major and minor, wide-spread audiences; "the varied carols I hear" Audiences from the past, many thousands in all, students seated in classes, some small, many crowded, some sloping up, some eager, admiring, some sleepy, some bored, some even hostile, many taking notes, some very inspired, some even adoring, of course I had my performances, but they were more or less attending, responding, some even for all of life ! some that I danced with, many that I recited poems for, some that confessed and cried to me, some that comitted suicide, some that had books published, some that won prizes, some that dedicated their books to me, some that have written to me about their chidren graduating from college, some that went on Protest marches years ago with me, some who graduated more than 50 years ago still now and then going on Protest marches. some that write me about their grandchildren being born, some of us still very excited by Hopkins, Keats, Whitman, Dostoyevsky, Rilke, many many from my Shakespeare classes where I was most often passionate, it varied day after day, month after month, year after year - for 44 years in many countries, East and West, audiences ! in various stages of sleep, enlightenment, some annoyed, some with great love, all of them together like a great vast orchestra with various abilities; seeing their reactions at times was like being on a plane refueling while high in flight, the audience all together of all races and religions many of them Appreciated and Cheered by the Whitman in me.

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