Hey y'all. The next *LSD Tabloid*, the schmoozemagazine of the Love's
Supreme Desire xxx radical faerie and friends' creative/spirit collective,
will be finished and beamed out to interested parties on the new moon, Dec.
10. From this point on, the LSD Tabloid will be much more personal, and
much more focused on healing and creative spirituality than it has been,
because last month I was diagnosed HIV positive, and I want to talk about
and share my experience from this point on with anyone who may be
interested. Why? Because it seems important to me to share the experience
with other artists, healers, spiritual seekers, and anyone who has a
chronic and/or life threatening condition or is close to someone with such
a condition. In fact, it feels like a mission that I am supposed to fulfill
(besides, I'm not the kind of person who can keep my mouth shut, and I love
to write). Dis-ease is one of the most powerful teachers, and I'm
approaching this as an opportunity for growth and change, not a death
march. When I was first diagnosed, a little voice in my head said "it's a
gift, you'll see." And so far, it has been. Later on, the same little voice
told me to "love the virus." Sounds like heresy, but I want to learn to
love this virus, and to love myself, because there is a healing magick in
love. So, if you are HIV positive or chronically ill
(spiritually/emotionally/physically) and want to share experiences, or just
read about mine, or if you are HIV negative and want to see how things
could be if you were on the other side, you might like to read LSD Tabloid.
If you are an artist or spiritual seeker, this also will be of interest to
you, because that is my perspective on things. I promise, this won't be a
maudlin, melodramatic, downer of a dried-out old rag, but rather an honest,
funny, upbeat journal of both the positives and the negatives of being
positively positive. Please consider passing this post on to someone who
may find it useful. The LSD Tabloid is free via internet. Just let me know
if you'd like to receive a sample copy or to subscribe. Thank you, and
blessings to all. Bloobird PS: WAY TO GO, HAWAII (for legalizing
same-sex marriage)!!
To those friends of mine who will find out through this post that I am HIV
positive; If I haven't told you yet, it's because 1) I haven't seen you
yet, or 2) it stresses me out to have to do so, and I'm trying to avoid
stress. I want to be positive, so it's hard to handle the quite natural and
understandable sadness of close friends right now. I've told several of my
close friends already, and it always drags me down into fear and turmoil. I
hope you don't take offense at this method of sharing the news, but it's
what I need to do right now. I'm sure you understand. I'm still the same
guy, I'm still healthy, and we're all mortal. So not much has changed. What
has changed is that my priorities are different. Friends, fun, joy,
creativity, and love are more important than anything else. So let's have
fun sometime soon, OK? Your friend, Blue
Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful; it is
not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is
not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong, but
rejoices in the right. Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
-1 Corinthians 13
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